Further studies led me to meet Betty Friedan and Germaine Greer and I knew that when I was all grown up I could be whatever I wanted, I could vote I could have a career; I could choose to have a family and still bring home the bacon.
And so I do….
But where is the book that tells you how to credibly walk into a business meeting with nappy cream on your cuff because the baby secretly caught you on the way out. Where is the book that tells you how to divide yourself in two to answer work calls and read a bedtime story?
Where can I find an appeasement to my guilt that whilst I am out earning pennies I am missing my babies getting bigger?
I love my job, I love my children, but often the combination of the two is exhausting.
I dash home from work ready to swoop up the three of them and turn into ‘fun mummy’ but instead I arrive into the chaos of bedtime for three where all too often tears and tantrums are lined up waiting to greet me at the door.
Will I ever manage to quell the crushing feeling that I should have spent more time with BB whilst she has been in spica.
And then it takes a six year old to put life into perspective, a six year old to teach you that you are not missing out but instead creating a life for your family.
As I dashed out of the house this morning twin girl pressed a hand-drawn picture into palm. It showed a vibrantly coloured much slimmer me falling down a water slide whilst my children bobbed in the water waiting for me to splash land.
The accompanying text read…
Dear Mummy thank you for going to work, it’s ok at home but we miss you. I love you lots love from Molly.
Being a working mum can be hard, being a stay at home mum can be tough, both are paths we choose to take and both are roads we travel for our children.
Sometimes though a simple thank you makes you remember why you do it…
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