bb goes back to hospital

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Logically I shouldn’t be worried about tomorrow; my rational mind tells me BB is not in any danger and is in the best possible place. I also know quite clearly that I am incredibly lucky to have such a beautiful healthy daughter who has to live with a small condition.

But I do feel a bit wobbly, I would be telling a bit of an untruth if I were to say I wasn’t feeling more than a bit scared about BB’s MRI scan. Its funny the scan doesn’t worry me; I am hopeful the results will be clear or at worse case confirm the diagnosis of eplipsy. But the thought of someone putting my beautiful tiny little girl to sleep is close to unbearable.

Rationally I know it is routine but I don’t want her to have to need a routine procedure. Rationally I know she will be fine but yet my knees quiver when my minds eye sees the needle entering her nine month old hand. Rationally I know she will wake up, cry a little and then settle on the breast, but my mind runs away with me sometimes down the what if road…

Rational thought seems to be jumping on a speeding horse and galloping away from me right now.

To my lovely bb, you’ll be fine, I will be a wreck, and we will all come home tomorrow happy…

Rational thought will then be resumed.

33 thoughts on “bb goes back to hospital”

  1. Aw, been there and it is totally normal to be worried. Tomorrow will be harder on you than on her.

    Good luck and make sure they let you stay nearby so you can be there when she wakes (they don’t always routinely) xx

  2. Sending BB big kisses to help her have a lovely dream tomorrow. Huge hugs for you am off tomorrow will have my phone next to me all day in case you want to text e mail or call. Such a brave Mummy xxxx

  3. I’ve always been told babies are made of much stronger stuff than we give them credit for and we always take it harder than them. Hope it goes really well for both of you tomorrow! xxx

  4. Hugs to you. I think I would be feeling exactly the same way if I was in your position. After all I cried when mt daughter had her first few jabs! But that’s our job as mothers isn’t it? Don’t worry, she’ll be just fine and will probably be wondering what all the fuss is about.

  5. I know totally how you feel and reading that has brought the feelings and the tears back to my eyes, I was in exactely the same position last week, at about this time waiting for Babas op on tuesday.

    I am not going to bother telling you she will be fine you know in your heart she will be but she is your baby. Of course you are scared, or as I stated so beautifully in my post last week ‘bricking it’ your her mummy you are going to be scared. But I was amazed how I kept it together for Baba and you will too, for BB. Thats what we do we keep it together.

    I will be thinking off you tomorrow. Great big hugs and will be looking forward to hear from you when you are all rational thinking again xx

  6. You are so right, she will be fine and you will be a mess. That’s what is supposed to happen and what makes a fantastic mother.

    Good luck with everything, will be thinking of you.

  7. big hugs to you both – horrid as it sounds a routine procedure is just that done lots of time and nothing special or out of the ordinary to worry about. I had to witness a lumber puncture with smaller twin at 3 weeks old and that was awful for me but he was OK (I think asleep!) and BB will be asleep too and none the wiser xxx

  8. Got everything crossed for you, but I’m sure it will all go as smooth as silk. It’s totally natural to feel protective of bb and scared at the same time, it comes with the territory my Mum always says 😀 Good luck and let us know how it goes x

  11. Good luck. It will be so hard for you, but like Ella says it will be harder for you than it is for her.

    My husband reckons labour is harder on the man as you have to witness it and can do nothing about it. I guess it will be kind of similar for you today. Hoping everything goes smoothly. x

  12. When it comes to your children rational is difficult. I totally understand your nervousness. I’d hate anyone putting my children under anaesthetic. I’m sure all will be fine but we’ll be thinking of you and the little one in any case.

    M2Mx

  13. Your a mum and you wouldnt be human if you didnt worry. Its mothers nature to do so. Thinking of you today, hope all goes well and its not too traumatic for either of you x

  15. Oh what a time u r having. Reading this I knew exactly where u are coming from and sent me back in time to the day my eldest was born. She had to be paralysed in special.care for about 2 weeks. U know it is the best thing for them, so that they can get the treatment they need, but goodness if I could have done it for her instead I really would! Thinking off u and I hope u get the answers u need xxx

  16. hope it goes well today, watching your baby be put to sleep is the most unnatural thing, I remember my terror well from when my tiny had her op. Hope it’s not too hard on you today and BB has a lovely little sleep and that the MRI brings some answers for you. THinking of you both xxx

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