For those of you who read this blog regularly you will know that my littlest daughter has been asserting herself this month by competing with her twin siblings for providing blog content. She is beating twin boy hands down in the soiling yourself competition that they have going on; but to be fair age is on her side here and it is a harsh mother who can shout at a baby for pooping themselves. However a five year old boy is a different story!
So beautiful baby has been providing content in a much scarier fashion by having unexplained convulsions; terrifying to watch for both me and he who helped create them. Although the cool, calm and collected younger pair both seem to take it in their stride by simply dismissing it as ‘another fit’.
Today we got answers; bb has epilepsy, the word I have tried to avoid saying out loud for the last month. She will take medication for at least two years and faces a series of tests and brain scans in the not so distant future. As the doctor explained the procedures to me this morning my world started to fall inwards slightly. Then after some tears in the car, chats with 3am friends and my parents I decided to get a grip back on reality.
I have a beautiful baby daughter whom I adore, she is placid, delightful to play with and a dream to cuddle. She loves roasted courgettes which taste horrendous to anyone with a decent palate, she also likes to eat mobile phones, but only ones that work she cannot be fobbed off with an old knackered one. For kicks she likes to wake at two am to have a chat and some milk and for amusement she likes to wait until I am wearing a non feeding top and have a room full of people (normally in laws) before demanding a random, out of routine, breast feed. She is too long for all her clothes but not plump enough to fill out the next size so she always looks like we dress her badly; and yet she pulls it off with style. She has two marvellous older siblings who think she is the best thing since sliced bread. She doesnt laugh a lot but smiles for most of the day; when you do get to hear her angelic giggle it sounds like heaven in a can. She has just learnt to sit up and shows no signs of wanting to move which is a blessing is disguise for us parents. And she now has a condition called epilepsy. I don’t know much about it yet but I will soon.
Nothing else in our lives changed today (except that I may find it harder to get a babysitter in the next few months!) the only thing that has altered slightly is that my bb is now on a path to stop fitting altogether instead of having two worried parents who have been holding their breath waiting for the next seizure.
As my Dad would say, there are worse things that can happen. And as we all know – parents have that annoying way of always being right.
Thanks to everyone who has asked about bb in the last month – as you can see she is pretty much perfect.