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sitting by a hospital cot

I am writing this sitting in a chair in a brightly lit children’s ward in the hospital with a sleeping angel on my lap. I don’t need to write this one in order to not forget as today is one of those days that has carved itself into my memory banks. I am writing purely for something to do to stop my mind working on irrational overtime.

Beautiful baby had a seizure this morning, she was not unwell, she doesn’t have a temperature. Yet for some reason she fitted this morning whilst he who helped create them was helping her with breakfast.

To watch your tiny baby stop breathing and shudder uncontrollably is indescribable. My world slowly collapsed as I found myself powerless to help as he who helped create them behaved magnificently. I managed to compose myself just enough to sob out my address for the ambulance.

She’s fine, she caught her breath after eternity passed and her twitching slowed to a gentle rock and then she calmed and slowly the light behind her eyes started to glow again.

So now we wait to see if it happens again.

I am counting my blessings, as a mum of three this is the first time I have stepped foot in a children’s ward; and beautiful baby is showing all signs of being perfectly wonderful as usual; and my heart is bursting with adoration for my tiny little love.

To those of you who have spent more time on these brightly lit wards you have my admiration and support.

Fingers crossed all results come back clear and we are home in the morning.

Comments

  1. ghostwritermummy says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:29 pm

    Oh no! I hope all is ok. I have heard that seizures are quite common in babies with high temps but I know that won’t make it any easier for you. Let us know how she is, will be thinking of you.
    xXx

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  2. Elenchus says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:30 pm

    Oh my goodness I am so sorry, my thoughts are absolutely and utterly with you, E xxxxxx

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  3. @mummiafelice says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:30 pm

    Oh my goodness! Sending you all lots of love and hugs xx That sounds so frightening. I hope the results are good. Thinking of you all xxxxxxx

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  4. Corinne Ellison says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:30 pm

    Wishing you and your little one all the best. Fingers crossed for good results xx

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  5. Jordan says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:31 pm

    Keeping fingers very tightly crossed for you all & hope baby beautiful really is ok.
    Hugs to you, xxxx

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  6. Laura Weight says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:32 pm

    Just wanted to send my love and I hope you find out what caused it so it doesn’t happen again. Hugs xx

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  7. TheBoyandMe says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:32 pm

    Oh christ, I am so sorry! I am sure that baby is going to be fine but you must be so worried. The Boy spent 4 days in a children’s ward having fallen unconscious so I know how worrying it is, and also how wonderful and attentive the staff are. Huge hug

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  8. Kirsten says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:35 pm

    Hope all is ok and you are being looked after, thinking of you and hope you get home soon x

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  9. Kylie Hodges (kykaree) says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:39 pm

    I know how scary it is, I’ve spent 78 nights like that during my son’s short life, and its terrifying.

    I hope its “One of the those things” and nothing serious, and your back home soon.

    Joseph had an admission when he was 6 months old, just for a night that time, and loved it! I think he likes having staff rather than parents!

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  10. The Moiderer says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:40 pm

    Oh my – I know how awful that feeling is. How time freezes and your own heart stops beating for a while. I hope your darling recovers quickly and completely

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  11. Alli Marshall says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:41 pm

    I’m so sorry to read this, I hope your Baby Beautiful is well enough to go home soon! I’ll be thinking of you x

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  12. rachel says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:45 pm

    Its very scary, hope everything turns out ok xx

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  13. moodmonster says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:47 pm

    Oh No, poor little mite, hope she is ok!! Fingers crossed and a quick prayer to him upstairs.

    I have been there a couple of times and it is not a nice place:-( The staff are always amazing.

    Thinking of you and am sure she will be fine.
    xx

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  14. Honest Mum says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:51 pm

    So sorry to hear of this and thinking of you. Hope you are both back home and baby beautiful makes a speedy recovery xxx

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  15. Ness says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:52 pm

    Thinking of you Jane. Hope they get to the bottom of it.
    Much love xxxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      January 18, 2011 at 2:01 pm

      Thanks ness, she seems fine x

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  16. CaroleHolland says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:57 pm

    Oh no :9 Hope everything comes back okay and, like others have said, it just turns out to be ‘one of those things’ (and a one off at that).

    Thoughts, love and prayers with you, BabyBeautiful and the rest of the family xxxxxxxxxxx

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  17. The Mad House says

    January 18, 2011 at 1:58 pm

    I hope that they get to the bottom of the issue and that you are all OK. I am sending my thoughts and prayers

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  18. superlittlemen says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:00 pm

    I hope baby beautiful is ok and they find out why she fitted. I remember seeing a febrile fit & that was frightening enough. Hope you are ok as well, thinking of you x

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  19. Michelle @utterlyscrummy says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:00 pm

    I hope your gorgeous girl is well asap. What an awful shock for all of you. Hope it was just a one off and all is OK. Great big hugs, lotsa love & prayers xxxxx

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  20. Jo says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:01 pm

    oh my! Mahoosive hugs to you, baby beautiful and he who helped create them. Hope they figure it all out quickly so you can all go home, thinking of you xxxx

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  21. Bumbling says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:01 pm

    It’s unthinkable, and yet oh so real.

    My thoughts are with you, and your beautiful baby xx

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  22. smukphotography says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:02 pm

    Gosh, I’ve been in a similar situation it’s so incredibly petrifying. Hope they have some answers for you x

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  23. Helloitsgemma says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:03 pm

    Thinking of you! And 3 cheers for he who helped create them!! Xxx

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  24. Emma @ Mummy Musings says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:05 pm

    Oh my gosh. Big hugs to you both.

    Hope all the results come back clear and you can take your baby home very soon.

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  25. Wendy McDonald says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:06 pm

    So sorry…my thoughts are with you and your family. My daughter had a convulsion when she was a baby so I know how terrifying it can be. Thankfully it was a one off and she’s never had any recurrences. Love and hugs to Baby Beautiful x

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  26. MostlyYummy says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:07 pm

    Oh sweetie I am oh so sorry. I can’t imagine how scary it must have been for you. Sending lots of get well vibes to your beautiful baby.

    Much love to you all xx

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  27. Jules says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:07 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear this….you are a very brave lady! I hope you’re allowed home soon and can start recovering from the shock and scariness of it all….
    Lots of love,
    Jules

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  28. ella says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:09 pm

    I spend a lot of time on those brightly lit wards so I know a little of how you must be feeling. Big big hugs and hope she will be given the all clear very quickly xx

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  29. Trish@ Mum's Gone to says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:11 pm

    A relief to get to the bottom of the post and read that she seems to be ok after the seizure. Let’s hope it’s just a one-off.
    I’ve only had one big hospital scare with mine and I remember how hopeless and scared I felt.

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  30. Pumpkin and Piglet says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:14 pm

    That must have been so scary. I hope they can give you some answers and you can both go home soon x

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  31. Carly says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:14 pm

    Lots of love and hugs to you at this time, I am so happy beautiful baby is ok, keep strong x

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  32. karen Jones says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:14 pm

    Thankfully we have only had the odd visit to A & E with bumps and nothing serious. Fingers crossed and prayers that it is a one off incident and baby is fine. Hugs to you all xx

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  33. Chi_ibi says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:18 pm

    That’s sounds very scary, fingers crossed you will have the all clear and home in the morning xx

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  34. MellyBentley says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:18 pm

    sending you love and best wishes

    x

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  35. All for Aleyna says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:22 pm

    No matter how much we tell you we have been there and we know how hard it is, NOTHING can prepare you for your own child having a seizure, it is very frightening. You have a lot of support but the most important thing is you are an amazing Mum. Keep strong but remember to look after yourself aswell. All my thoughts. She will be grand. They are so tough. xxxx

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  36. Dawnie says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:31 pm

    Thinking of you xxx

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  37. Vanessa says

    January 18, 2011 at 2:40 pm

    Thinking of you all. Your baby is beautiful and she will come through this fine. There are no words to describe how you feel when your child is poorly but know this that everyone is here to support you and all of these wonderful comments and thoughts will make you all stronger. xxxxx (a friend of the Moiderer).

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  38. Kara says

    January 18, 2011 at 3:01 pm

    Hugs. Been where you are. 1st time is always terrifying I am afraid to say it’s a regular place to visit for me know. Don’t panic I have met many moms in your position and they never end up coming back. It’s a lonely place though. Take care and kisses to your little one xx

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  39. Rachael says

    January 18, 2011 at 3:10 pm

    I’m glad to hear baby seems fine. Keep thinking positive thoughts. Negative ones won’t make her better and will only serve to scare you further. Hugs. x

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  40. Liz Fielding says

    January 18, 2011 at 3:57 pm

    Bless you. Sending all best wishes for a swift return home and no returns.

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  41. suzie says

    January 18, 2011 at 6:27 pm

    Hey jane hope everything is ok. My littlest one used to get breath holding spells – she would not breath and go blue, sometimes fit and then lose consciousness. Probably the most horriblest moment of my life the first time it happened but it got better. Am thinking of you and hoping it is nothing serious and something that can be dealt with. Hope u get some rest a bit too.
    suziexxxxx

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  42. Carole says

    January 18, 2011 at 8:50 pm

    Thinking of you all. Hope your little angel is sleeping soundly and you are going to get something to eat and rest. Big hugs all around xxxx

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  43. LincolnAndMe says

    January 18, 2011 at 9:30 pm

    Oh my god!!! So frightening to go through suchj a horrible thing! Hope she gets the all clear and is let home! Sending hugs your way Jane xxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      January 18, 2011 at 10:10 pm

      Thanks mary x x x

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  44. MrsMccers says

    January 18, 2011 at 10:25 pm

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, bubba and family. X

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  45. Fiona murphy says

    January 18, 2011 at 11:36 pm

    So sorry to hear this it is very scary being in this situation with your little one. Just remember she is in the best place (the hospital and your lap!) and she is being held and watched over by her creator.
    Thinking of you and praying that they will find the cause, the solution and you will both be home soon

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  46. Mammywoo says

    January 19, 2011 at 3:05 pm

    Oh my god I had no idea! I hope bb is ok? Must read on! My thought are with you!

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  47. shamtest says

    May 14, 2011 at 9:42 am

    I can’t seem to properly browse this page from my smartphone!!!

    Reply

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