I don't think of you often, but when I do my hand caresses my tummy where you lived for such a short time before leaving this world behind. I remember you on the day you should have been born and on the day you died and sometimes I hear a whisper in the wind and you squeeze the part of my heart that belongs to you, my baby I never got to meet. We are still a family of five; if I hadn't lost … [Read more...]
Jun 13, 2012
Northernmum: My time in pubs and Tesco’s toilets…..
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It was May, we had spent the weekend with our parents at the races, it was 2005 and our family just consisted of two, me and he who would be creating them. I felt different, a little tired, a little sick, I convinced myself it was down to a weekend of over indulgence. But still, as I walked into a Chemists on the Sunday morning and passed the testing aisle I paused. It had only been six … [Read more...]
May 2, 2012
Parenting: The one about being pregnant ~ Northernmum
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Benjamin Franklin once said….. A ship under sail and a big-bellied woman, are the handsomest two things that can be seen common … [Read more...]
Feb 21, 2012
I want to change my children
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I grew you, do you know that? I grew you from being smaller than a spec of sand. Your fingers and thumbs were defined within me; your hearts starting beating next to my own. You all first sucked your thumbs safe inside my chocolate filled belly; you were created with a passion and sustained by love. … [Read more...]
Jun 16, 2011
Miscarriage: A Crack in My Heart….
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The day I missed a miscarriage... It was 2009, it was a Friday, the weather was unremarkable, neither hot nor cold with no wind to blow the petals off the roses in the garden. I was almost thirteen weeks pregnant with my third baby, I had turned a corner and left the exhaustion, the nausea and the love affair with my toilet bowl behind in the first trimester. … [Read more...]
Jun 15, 2011
Newsworthy…… I think not…..
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Sometimes I read rubbish stuff; mainly from the trash magazines that I read for a guilty pleasure but more often from the rags we call newspapers. Today the headline that caught my eye in the Metro was: … [Read more...]
Dec 20, 2010
Love
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Love When you bring a tiny new life into the world it is almost incomprehensible to describe how much your heart can explode with a new type of love. It is not the intense flutters you feel when you meet your future spouse, or the nervous excitement as you lean in for a first kiss. Nor does it compare to the moment the test shows up two lines although that was pretty extreme on its own. It … [Read more...]
Dec 16, 2010
Christmas and all that jazz
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So the festive season is fully upon us, dangling blinking lights hang from every other house and the vast majority of us have paid an inappropriate amount of money for a large potted plant to sit and slowly die in the corner of our living room. However as it is the time to be merry we at least send the plant out in style by adorning it with sparkles and glitter; and in our case a vast amount of … [Read more...]
Dec 6, 2010
dont forget this
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Things to not forget. The urgent pleas at night-time for one more kiss and 'huggle'. So often I am rushing on to the next task, to sort the house, to make the dinner, to wrap the presents. No sooner than I blink I am sure night-time huggles will erode from our relationship and I will regret the even one time I pull away from the undeniably loveliness of sharing a hug with my beautiful babies. I … [Read more...]
Dec 5, 2010
dont expect an invite….
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I have got my best suit out, ironed he who helped create them a shirt and we have both had our weekly bath. We have to look at our best as we are off to see the bank manager tomorrow. Truth is we need a loan, and a substantial one at that. Twin girl and boy turn five in less than seven weeks and they need a party and we need a loan in order to lay one on. When did parties evolve from having a … [Read more...]
