[subscribe2]As 2012 starts to slowly shuffle around picking up his bits and packing his bags, I find myself biting my fist resisting the urge to help him on his way and shove him out the door.
I can see 2013 lingering at the doorway, politely coughing and stamping his feet to try and keep warm. He doesn’t want to come too early but he is eager to start the new year.
I catch 2013’s eye and hold it for a moment. Can he see my silent prayer?
Does he know 2012 left me battered and bruised and my expectations shattered, does he plan to hold my hand through his reign and leave me jubilant when he walks away in one years time.
2012 grumbles for a moment as he rolls up another pair of socks and then with a malicious giggle he tosses me a reminder for a hospital appointment I almost forgot. He then grabs a small shrivelled pancreas and adds it to his bag with a smirk.
2012 leaves his legacy, it is a relationship that has branded me, yet we survived. I have lost friends whilst 2012 held me in his grip, loved ones that I just forgot to call back whilst trying to live. 2013 looks more amenable, it looks like time to win them back. A limp in one child and an insulin deficiency in the other means we cannot forget the turbulent year but we can move on, together.
2013, I see you.
I see the twinkle in your eye, I see dreams of a better year circling around you.
2012, It is time to say goodbye.
Notmyyearoff says
Hope 2013 is much much much better than 2012 for you!
northernmum says
Thanks honey x
Mari says
Yes, I do feel like that, for completely different reasons but 2012 has left me wary and cautious, two traits I wasn’t at the beginning of 2012.
Very best of luck to you and yours and may 2013 bring you much laughter and happiness – cheers to that!
northernmum says
Thanks Mari x
Donna@MummyCentral says
Sorry 2012 has been so rough for you.
But for me, I’m nervous to welcome 2013 because he holds so many hopes for me. Next year is when youngest starts school – and I can start thinking about what I want to do with this next portion of my life.
It’s scary. 2012 has been safe.
2013 could make my dreams come true, or shatter them completely.
northernmum says
Oh my I am going to be watching with baited breath now!
LauraCYMFT says
2013 will be a good year for you all. 2 fingers to 2012!
northernmum says
hell yeah
Middle-Aged Matron says
I do sincerely hope that 2013 is good to you.
northernmum says
Thanks lovely one x
Mrs C says
Not sure what to think of 2012. It was horrific in the sense that my Dad lost hid fight with cancer, but it also brought the birth of my son and my sister’s wedding. 2013 will start with me being booked into hospital for surgery – not something I’m looking forward to either…
Sian says
I’m with you Janey.
northernmum says
much love sian x
northernmum says
will be thinking of you x
Emma says
so with you on this one. Here is to a happy healthy 2013. xx Our little gang deserves it. x
northernmum says
god yes!
Emma @mummymummymum says
I hope 2013 is much kinder to you. Much love. xxx
northernmum says
Thanks em x
rhian @melbs says
Bring on 2013! Hope it is a great one for you. Love you honey.xxx
northernmum says
Awww you too ozzie girl x
Jaime Oliver says
Heres hoping you have a far better year in 2013! x
northernmum says
Thanks Jamie
older mum in a muddle says
Here’s to you NM … I really hope next year brings far more brightness into your lives than this one did. Well done you for getting through it – I really wish you the very best. X.
northernmum says
Cheers poppet x
Blue sky says
Things can only get better…as someone once sang and it’s one of my mottos, even though you wouldn’t believe it when I’m being all moany on the blog! Wishing you all a very happy 2013 xx
northernmum says
you too lovely x
liveotherwise says
Here’s hoping it’s a better year for you.
northernmum says
Thanks
Emma @mummymummymum says
Sending you lots of love Jane. xxx
northernmum says
Thanks lady – see you soon x
Annie says
Thank you for visiting my blog! I am looking forward to visiting yours often!
northernmum says
Thanks x
Jenny Paulin says
I really like the way you have written this .
I am sorry that 2012 was a bit pants, to out it mildly and I really hope this year proves to be much, much better
Thanks for letting me link to your post
Happy new year x
northernmum says
Cheers Jenny
claire Toplis says
The best future is ahead of you I am sure take heart x
northernmum says
Thanks Claire x