It’s time to say goodbye…. ~ Northernmum

It’s time to say goodbye…. ~ Northernmum [subscribe2]As 2012 starts to slowly shuffle around picking up his bits and packing his bags, I find myself biting my fist resisting the urge to help him on his way and shove him out the door.

I can see 2013 lingering at the doorway, politely coughing and stamping his feet to try and keep warm.  He doesn’t want to come too early but he is eager to start the new year.

I catch 2013’s eye and hold it for a moment.  Can he see my silent prayer?

Does he know 2012 left me battered and bruised and my expectations shattered, does he plan to hold my hand through his reign and leave me jubilant when he walks away in one years time.

2012 grumbles for a moment as he rolls up another pair of socks and then with a malicious giggle he tosses me a reminder for a hospital appointment I almost forgot.  He then grabs a small shrivelled pancreas and adds it to his bag with a smirk.

2012 leaves his legacy, it is a relationship that has branded me, yet we survived.   I have lost friends whilst 2012 held me in his grip, loved ones that I just forgot to call back whilst trying to live.  2013 looks more amenable, it looks like time to win them back.  A limp in one child and an insulin deficiency in the other means we cannot forget the turbulent year but we can move on, together.

2013, I see you.

I see the twinkle in your eye, I see dreams of a better year circling around you.

2012, It is time to say goodbye.

36 Comments

  1. December 13, 2012 / 5:25 pm

    Hope 2013 is much much much better than 2012 for you!

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:44 pm

      Thanks honey x

  2. December 13, 2012 / 5:46 pm

    Yes, I do feel like that, for completely different reasons but 2012 has left me wary and cautious, two traits I wasn’t at the beginning of 2012.

    Very best of luck to you and yours and may 2013 bring you much laughter and happiness – cheers to that!

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:53 pm

      Thanks Mari x

  3. December 13, 2012 / 9:15 pm

    Sorry 2012 has been so rough for you.
    But for me, I’m nervous to welcome 2013 because he holds so many hopes for me. Next year is when youngest starts school – and I can start thinking about what I want to do with this next portion of my life.
    It’s scary. 2012 has been safe.
    2013 could make my dreams come true, or shatter them completely.

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:53 pm

      Oh my I am going to be watching with baited breath now!

  4. December 13, 2012 / 9:53 pm

    2013 will be a good year for you all. 2 fingers to 2012!

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:53 pm

      hell yeah

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:52 pm

      Thanks lovely one x

  5. Mrs C
    December 14, 2012 / 12:43 pm

    Not sure what to think of 2012. It was horrific in the sense that my Dad lost hid fight with cancer, but it also brought the birth of my son and my sister’s wedding. 2013 will start with me being booked into hospital for surgery – not something I’m looking forward to either…

    • Sian
      December 14, 2012 / 1:12 pm

      I’m with you Janey.

      • northernmum
        December 14, 2012 / 10:52 pm

        much love sian x

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:52 pm

      will be thinking of you x

  6. December 14, 2012 / 1:41 pm

    so with you on this one. Here is to a happy healthy 2013. xx Our little gang deserves it. x

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:50 pm

      god yes!

    • northernmum
      December 14, 2012 / 10:51 pm

      Thanks em x

  7. December 15, 2012 / 10:37 am

    Bring on 2013! Hope it is a great one for you. Love you honey.xxx

    • northernmum
      December 30, 2012 / 9:36 pm

      Awww you too ozzie girl x

  8. December 15, 2012 / 1:12 pm

    Heres hoping you have a far better year in 2013! x

    • northernmum
      December 30, 2012 / 9:37 pm

      Thanks Jamie

  9. December 15, 2012 / 8:56 pm

    Here’s to you NM … I really hope next year brings far more brightness into your lives than this one did. Well done you for getting through it – I really wish you the very best. X.

    • northernmum
      December 30, 2012 / 9:37 pm

      Cheers poppet x

  10. December 16, 2012 / 10:59 pm

    Things can only get better…as someone once sang and it’s one of my mottos, even though you wouldn’t believe it when I’m being all moany on the blog! Wishing you all a very happy 2013 xx

    • northernmum
      December 30, 2012 / 9:37 pm

      you too lovely x

  11. December 21, 2012 / 1:39 pm

    Here’s hoping it’s a better year for you.

    • northernmum
      December 21, 2012 / 4:02 pm

      Thanks

    • northernmum
      December 30, 2012 / 9:29 pm

      Thanks lady – see you soon x

  12. December 31, 2012 / 1:01 am

    Thank you for visiting my blog! I am looking forward to visiting yours often!

    • northernmum
      December 31, 2012 / 9:36 am

      Thanks x

  13. Jenny Paulin
    January 1, 2013 / 5:33 pm

    I really like the way you have written this .
    I am sorry that 2012 was a bit pants, to out it mildly and I really hope this year proves to be much, much better
    Thanks for letting me link to your post
    Happy new year x

    • northernmum
      January 3, 2013 / 4:37 pm

      Cheers Jenny

  14. January 3, 2013 / 12:40 pm

    The best future is ahead of you I am sure take heart x

    • northernmum
      January 3, 2013 / 10:21 pm

      Thanks Claire x

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