It’s the final countdown…
In six weeks BB will turn two, she will be spica free and hopefully on the road to recovery. She will be a toddler and still breastfed.
It was never a conscious decision to breastfeed a toddler.
When BB was born I struggled tremendously with breastfeeding, it hurt like hell, my bosoms ached like they had gone three rounds with Tyson, and it was all hard work. I carried on, not because I am a martyr or a masochist but because it was something I wanted to do. Then at four months we turned a corner and suddenly everything fell into place.
Then we have never looked back….
I have never really seen the point in stopping, she loves it, I love it, it has additional health benefits for us both. Yet just lately I have caught my self saying ‘I am still breastfeeding.’ The use of the word still carries a slight connotation of embarrassment, it feels like I am coughing out an apology for the way I feed and comfort my child.
But I don’t want to stop.
I fall in from work some days and as I walk through the door I shed off my work attire and transform into mummy mode. I am often knocked sideways by flying six-year olds and then treated to a lick and a leap from the dog and all the time I can see a spica clad toddler yelling ‘mumma mumma’ waiting for me to reach her and collapse her into my arms.
As bedtime approaches too soon after the reality of the working day she looks to me for her milk and as I cradle her against my chest we both sigh into relaxation and our eyes roll with comfort.
I can’t speak for BB, although she looks pretty content, but feeding my daughter is a priceless experience, I can see her every muscle resting, I watch her drift towards sleep and I see a milk induced smile linger on her lips as I put her bed.
Before BB I questioned why people breastfed past six months and in having BB I have found my answer.
Doesn’t look like I will be stopping anytime soon….
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