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DDH: before the spica cast…

Dear BB,

The last few weeks have flown by and suddenly your operation is less than a breath away. The doctors have told me you should be in theatre for four to five hours but have warned it will feel like eternity, I remember last time, I know it will taste like forever.

You won’t remember being in a spica cast, you won’t remember three months of your life being tied down. This helps slightly but still my heart breaks a little when I think of you waking up post op finding your legs restricted and your mobility gone.

You have really just learnt to walk, and you spend your days wobbling from room to room. Your current love is keys, not those rubbish plastic ones which couldn’t open a tent, but ones that really open doors and cars. It is driving your daddy wild because you take them and hide them and since you can’t speak you can never bloody tell us where they are.

I’m sorry my lovely, somewhere along the way I grew you a little bit wrong. I’m sorry that you have to pay the price. If I could take your place I would do it in a heartbeat.

I know you will shame me, I will be a wreck huddled in the corner, red faced and snotty. You will emerge triumphant, ready to take on the world in your cast, ready to learn how to live (for a short time) without legs.

When you were born I always knew you were precious; my last child, created by love and grown by adoration.

You walked without a hip joint, you speak without words, you are a beautiful inspiration and my little girl.

Love you,

Mummy

Comments

  1. JallieDaddy says

    February 11, 2012 at 9:36 pm

    Beautiful post; wishing you & your BB all the best 🙂

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:42 pm

      thanks 🙂 x

      Reply
  2. Total DeliciousNess (@DeliciousNessy) says

    February 11, 2012 at 9:37 pm

    She is going to be amazing and so are you and so are the rest of your family. A tiny tiny blip in what is no doubt going to be a life full of brilliantness!
    Big love to BB! xxx

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:42 pm

      cheers ness x x x x

      Reply
  3. Notmyyearoff says

    February 11, 2012 at 9:45 pm

    She will be amazing because she has an amazing mummy! It will be worth it in the end. Hope it goes really quickly and really well x

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:42 pm

      thank you x

      Reply
  4. Helen Stothard says

    February 11, 2012 at 10:19 pm

    Pass the tissues, you’ve made me cry…again!

    She will be fine and this isn’t your fault, it’s not anyone’s fault, just a cruel twist of nature.

    Love to you both xxx

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:41 pm

      sorry helen x x x

      Reply
  5. Blue Sky says

    February 11, 2012 at 10:25 pm

    Please don’t blame yourself for this, it’s just one of those things, and it’s going to get fixed now xx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:40 pm

      thanks 🙂

      Reply
  6. Liz Fielding says

    February 11, 2012 at 10:52 pm

    Oh, good grief – welling up here. It’s not your fault, Jane. We’re all born a little bit less than perfect. When you’re a snivelling wreck, try and remember that we’re all hugging you.

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:40 pm

      aww i like that feeling x

      Reply
  7. @scribblingmum says

    February 11, 2012 at 10:59 pm

    Oh gosh, sending you all lots of hugs and I hope the clock isn’t too cruel and you see her before you know it, wakening up and smiling up at you X

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:40 pm

      cheers lovely x

      Reply
  8. wibbly wobbly says

    February 11, 2012 at 11:03 pm

    You saying I am less than perfect! 🙂 She is perfect, she is herself, and she is your BB. Do not even dare to blame yourself – these things happen (to me, too!) And they make us the people who we grow into. You don’t live to far from me so, be warned – I will hunt you down and pummell you with tissues and a bottle of your preferred alcohol. There is no-one to blame, and it is fixable – hard to go through, agreed, but you will both get through it. I will be thinking of you both and send huge hugs – this waiting bit is THE worst, for sure – and then BB starts the recovery journey. Much love, Annick x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:40 pm

      oh I love your comments, although worried about the hunting bit!

      Gin is the preferred alcohol btw!

      and thanks x x x x

      Reply
      • annickhollins says

        February 13, 2012 at 12:50 pm

        Thinking of you today – constantly – and hoping all is okay. xx

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  9. charliewells80 says

    February 12, 2012 at 8:11 am

    xxxx

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  10. elsie button says

    February 12, 2012 at 8:24 am

    very emotional reading this. You are amazing xxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:39 pm

      thanks elsie x

      Reply
  11. babybloggee says

    February 12, 2012 at 9:03 am

    Crying now. So emotive. be strong for your little girl, It will all be over in a few months x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:39 pm

      soreee, x

      Reply
  12. speccy says

    February 12, 2012 at 9:40 am

    sniffling here too
    This is not your fault. She is a strong, wonderful babe, full of drive and personality. A cast won’t hold her back!
    Go, BB 🙂

    Warm thoughts for the journey x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:39 pm

      thanks lovely xxxxx

      Reply
  13. Ali says

    February 12, 2012 at 9:52 am

    Lovely post, BB is lucky to have such a great Mummy and I think BB will make having a cast a little bit fun and some more good posts to come xxxxxx

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:38 pm

      has to be funny in there somewhere right!?! x x x

      Reply
  14. anna tims (@ageingmatron) says

    February 12, 2012 at 10:10 am

    What a wonderful tribute for her to look back on when she’s older. It’s easy to take healthy children for granted. When my daughter has been in hospital it has made me realise how lucky I was to have her, a blessing I might not have appreciated quite so searingly had she been born physically ‘perfect’. Your little girl’s disability is a painful misfortune, but the very eloquent love and admiration that it has inspired from you has turned it into something more positive. I wish you both the very best of luck.

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:38 pm

      thanks anna x

      Reply
  15. Lowri Murray says

    February 12, 2012 at 10:41 am

    Please don’t blame yourself for any of this, we are all, in our own ways, a little bit wonky, admittedly, some more so than others, but it is our little quirks which makes life so interesting.
    Having so recently been through all of this myself, I know exactly where you are coming from, but please be assured, that this time will pass more quickly than you could ever imagine, and you will all come out the other side a lot stronger, having been through this adventure together.
    My girls have now been cast free for longer than they had their casts on, and it really does seem a lifetime away. It’s taken a while and they’re still very wobbly, and need a lot of support, but their experiences have ultimately, made them stronger.
    All the best for the op, please keep us updated.

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:38 pm

      thanks lowri

      Reply
  16. Rachel Dsouza says

    February 12, 2012 at 1:47 pm

    You are one strong, brave, funny lady and you will get through this, you are a fighter and so is BB! I have so much admiration for you all and wish you the best of luck.
    My love to you all
    Rachel xxxxxxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:37 pm

      aw thanks big sis rachel x

      Reply
  17. Emma @mummymummymum says

    February 12, 2012 at 2:59 pm

    Oh Jane, you are and will be amazing and so will BB. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. Lots of love, me and Baby H xxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:37 pm

      thanks baby h – BB says come see me!

      Reply
  18. emma says

    February 12, 2012 at 3:41 pm

    I will be thinking of you all tomorrow. I am only a phonecall away. The worst part was the initial shock when Erin came round. She was bewildered beyond belief and very frightened, but it passed after a few hours. It doesn’t get easier putting them under a GA but you know needs must. Hugs to you all. xxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:36 pm

      thanks emma, you have been such a superstar

      Reply
  19. Hope2011 says

    February 12, 2012 at 3:54 pm

    Thats was beautiful, I read it with tears in my eyes. There is nothing more beautiful than a mothers love for her child!

    BB was be just fine, she will bounce back! Thinking of you all x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:41 pm

      thanks lovely, we know we will be fine x x

      Reply
  20. Super Amazing Mum says

    February 12, 2012 at 3:58 pm

    What a lovely post.

    All the best for you all tomorrow – as Emma says, the waiting is the worst part. When my eldest had his kidney taken out it was all I could do to not run a million miles away and bury my head in the sand…..you don’t want to leave the hospital (we were advised to go shopping WTF?!) but neither do you just want to sit and state at the walls. Take a book/laptop anything to try and distract you……..When my M came round from GA he was hyper (well more so than normal) for some reason and trying to do headstands on his bed…….kids are VERY resilient and be thankful she won’t remember.

    Will be thinking of you all xxxxxxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:36 pm

      I am taking he who helped create them – we are going to try talking! for six hours!!!!! god help us

      Reply
  21. Musing Ju says

    February 12, 2012 at 4:00 pm

    A beautifully written heartfelt piece. Is sounds as if you have one strong little girl on your hands there! Sending you lots of luck and best wishes. Jx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:35 pm

      Thanks ever so x x x x x

      Reply
  22. richmondmummy says

    February 12, 2012 at 6:30 pm

    Wishing you and BB all the luck in the world with the op. am sure it will be scary but you will all be able to deal with it because you have such love between you all. Don’t blame yourself for this, it’s just one of those things and in time it’ll be a distant memory as she races into a bright future xxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:35 pm

      thank you lovely x

      Reply
  23. Kate Takes 5 says

    February 12, 2012 at 7:56 pm

    I read this yesterday and didn’t know what to say but had to come back to comment. The feeling of hopelessness when you’re not in control of something like this is so so hard. But she will be fine – and how wonderful that we live in a part of the world where this type of thing can be fixed at all. Good luck to you all. Love and hugs. x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 8:35 pm

      aw thanks kate x

      Reply
  24. Becs says

    February 12, 2012 at 9:10 pm

    Beautiful, beautiful letter. When BB reads it when she’s older, she laugh at you being worried about her. Brought tears to my eyes.

    Love & strength to you and BB,

    Xxx

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 9:16 pm

      thanks becs x x x

      Reply
  25. Jo Galloway (@PottiJo) says

    February 12, 2012 at 9:15 pm

    Awww bless. Lovely Mummy post. Don’t feel guilty because your little one has to have a hip spica. Each step on life’s path is a precious moment even if it’s a different one from where you have each stepped before. I trained as an orthopaedic nurse and looked after several babes with hip spicas. You will learn how amazingly resilient and brave your BB is, you will find out things you never knew and your family will grow even stronger.
    Will be sending healing energies to your family. x

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 12, 2012 at 9:17 pm

      thanks Jo, that is really good to hear (and apologies for a barrage of questions on twitter) x x x

      Reply
  26. Kelly Wiffin says

    February 13, 2012 at 6:24 am

    Now I am crying! I hope that everything goes OK.

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 13, 2012 at 6:49 am

      It will be fine, sorry to set off the early morning water x

      Reply
  27. Sarah says

    February 13, 2012 at 6:34 am

    That’s so beautiful. Brought tears to my eyes. Sorry your little one has to endure surgery but dont blame yourself. Your unborn baby clearly felt nothing but love and adoration in utero. Giving her that, gave her the absolute best. X

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    • janeblackmore says

      February 13, 2012 at 6:49 am

      Thank you x x x

      Reply
  28. SAHMlovingit says

    February 13, 2012 at 4:49 pm

    Please! Don’t do this to a heavily pregnant and highly emotional woman. I’m sat here a snivelling wreck!

    I didn’t realise little BB had an op – the holiday has taken me out the loop I’m sorry lovely.

    Big hugs to you and BB. Hope she’s back on her feet again very soon xx

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  29. Helen M says

    February 13, 2012 at 6:30 pm

    Hi
    I’ve never posted before but read your blog all the time and just wanted to wish you all lots of luck and get better wishes too

    Helen x

    Reply
  30. sarsm says

    February 14, 2012 at 5:47 pm

    I’m trying really hard not to cry.

    Hugs xx

    Reply
  31. alysonsblog says

    February 15, 2012 at 8:03 am

    such a beautiful and heartfelt post x

    Reply
  32. Steph says

    February 19, 2012 at 9:29 pm

    We grow them all differently. Life would be boring if we didn’t, eh?! You’ll find the inner strength, and the time will hopefully fly by for you. Beautiful words, and thoughts – can only come from a loving mum x

    Reply
    • janeblackmore says

      February 19, 2012 at 9:42 pm

      Ta x

      Reply

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